What everything still looks like: Mourning against the wrath of a blinding communist

I still feel extremely lied against, cheated, raped, robbed in many ways. This has been a long term suffering. People can claim that have understanding of freedom and what it is to be controlling or a sore loser but the truth of action in real life is not there. Of all the extreme ways I get man-hunted, interrogated, and yelled at, it's still not the same civility on both ends and I've never made it my job to be a man-hunter/interrogator. Of course, this is all another impossible thing to say with the current protesting crisis. I have to keep my enslaved crying tears and thoughts to myself. Blogging doesn't entirely keep it to myself but I have never forced anyone to read my blogs. I got to be sensitive but my truth that has always been interrupted in some ways or another is still there..... I'm so mad that I don't get related with or recognized enough. I've hated being stalked and unknown in many aspects but I also hated being forced into being someone's blow up doll because they don't know what it means to face a person and have any grit. They force you to be whatever they want you to be because it works for them and is convenient for them. Do they ever get scolded for their rape and lies and forceful actions the ways I get man-hunted to my face?! Why doesn't someone recognize when a person wants to be called my know it all master and giving theirself some certain credits? How do people not seem to recognize or understand how much of a provocation and threat it is against me when a person treats theirself as my "Master," and give their self the credit of having me and understanding what it is to have me? How can someone not see how serious and severe of a crime it is to kill me with a "Master" gesture? What is not to get about my anger? Not in the worse unfair uncivil way. I am raped to my face. I am grossly ignored to my face. Some men just don't understand the quitter I never was to my anger. Like being forced to be a lesbian was going to relieve me of my anger; they've always been their worst arrogant fool and I've been ignored for years with them giving their self credit like they are the answer to my problem. And this is one example of the insufferable cheated and lied against mishad and raped victim I am. Men typically never take the fall for their actions and they won't be taken with two sides of the story actions. They avoid and make things worse by disguising one issue to another issue ONLY FOR ME TO FUCKING COME BACK TO THE SAME ISSUE LATER LIKE I'VE NEVER HAD ANY ISSUES AND LIKE I'VE NEVER EXISTED. THE CHEATING ROBBERS KEEP ME IGNORED. ON TOP OF THAT MEN TYPICALLY DON'T HAVE THE DECENCY TO RECOGNIZE AND/OR ADMIT TO HOW HATEFUL AND HOW MUCH OF A JEALOUSY IT IS TO KEEP A WOMAN MISTREATED THE WAY THEY DO. EVERYTHING IS MISALIGNED. Some have more of a grit but they remain way too dominant and still won't have enough of an understanding with the way they stay way too dominant. They make me feel so unwanted and rejected with what they put me through and while I can't change my feelings of despair and feeling jaded, they won't stop keeping things worse when they want to push me into a lesbian blow up doll. I was possessed to be wasted and I can't save myself. I hate the way there is a hateful communist always wanting to stand in my way and get in my face somewhere for me to be the same insufferable victim. They are such a sore loser for their dominant compliment. They can't be anymore of a Gadaffi than that.

Selling the Personal Guantanamo against me and the it of it's will to have it's dominate kill

I know there will be another molesting cannibal that gives itself the glory that it was it's choice to give me the permission to commit suicide if I ever were to. There is an "it" to the media, and "it" to Guantanamo and the ATK rapist Stockholm. I know there have been times that I have been stood up for against police brutality, ignorance, and judgment. I don't feel like I have been given justice enough and the "it" of the authoritative argumentative "suck it you are the bad guy," is still there. I mean I really need more justice than what I've been getting. I'm far from denying myself in having my bloodthirst like I know there is no shame to my bloodthirst. I've already said so many times how vain people are but I just can't find ways to make it effective enough with just how much of a mean, vain, hard head of a sex offender I have. … I get stockholmed in many ways and I know some whats in one of the stockholms I'm in, especially with Guantanamo. Guantanamo is the biggest fear monger of any Stockholm. Guantanamo is the biggest restrainer and isolator of a Stockholm. Guantanamo lives over me constantly obsessing and being desperate with it's will to have it's dominate kill that it greatly wants me to commit suicide with how authoritatively, judgmentally, and rapistly obsessed it is with me. I know that I see it for the violent jealous judgmental rape that it is. It fights against giving any satisfaction. Even though I'm isolated, kidnapped, and restrained, the rapist it is extremely vain, the credit is already there, the dominate kill is always there, and there is nothing being taken from it when it's information is being said and given away. All of this most extreme violence, judgment, and rape because I jerked off a dog when I was younger. The rapist Guantanamo soldier is extremely vain. I'm still made to be the bad guy to someone's extreme rape and terror. I'm going to throw what I think of Chris's ego and other extreme egos that I do know of in the sale. It's a dead giveaway of a control mechanism. Besides the fear, sadism, and control it wants to have, it sometimes wishes that I would just be the molested bestial rebel and go all out and take bestiality more seriously to tell the interrogation and judgment to go fuck itself another way. I'm molested either way "since" being bestial or a petri dish will always be my most dominate "truth," and I should just give in "to the truth of my nature." Like any person you can never win with and be forced to give in, you might as well be forced to give in lest you be all the more molested. I wouldn't be surprised if Chris Letang sucked a dog's dick or made his dick a dog's most willing chew toy just to be that molester against me. And, if you haven't been that molested bestial Betty Paige rebel Chris, I do wish for the eye for an eye of the Guantanamo soldier letting dogs or any living thing have your genitals owned and used as a chew toy. I will never understand what's not to understand about the sexual offense and rape it is. I do not understand how people would ever think their judgment, prosecution, and punishment will ever think it is right, but it is the most extreme violent truth that some cannibal people more than violently let their self have. FEARMONGERING SOLD. All of this being said, I still don't know what to do about any of it. What do you do when you have a rape like that wanting to live over you with the most murderous and jealous rapist obsession? I've been both silent and talked about it some. Besides me knowing it's been far from my choice, it's something I know I have no control with. It is the most violent and cold blooded thing for a person to want to never stop countering me with in wanting to argue with it being right and their rite. I just can't say just how vain some people are enough. There is nothing I can do on my end and whatever ways I probably have been lied against with the way some people want to say I suck it, I keep the suck it credit Guantanamo wants to give itself denied. I have nothing to lose and I would rather be dead. Information sold. Whatever way the sold information will or won't be given its satisfaction, my name is Puddintane.