For the Sake of Showing I Care

What do I care about? Being respectful and accepting of other's body types, and especially in this instance: a man's body. I'm not crazy over gaga but three cheers for her song "Born This Way." I honestly have a hard apology right now because of extremeness, terrible manipulators, and people who give theirself terrible rights. So many years ago, probably 10 by now, I said a terrible thing about small penis's. It wasn't even a blog. It was a private conversation between a friend and I, and the issue was never made to be big. The monster that has been made of me has been made too big and vile. I am upset over the monster that has been made of me, and the way people want to find another vindictive excuse to keep forcing me to "live myself down and feel a lowlife inferior. I deserve to be made a slave of." Whether or not some dominate men are comparing me to theirself over other things or not; I'm pretty upset that they would want to go Chicago on me and think that I'm comparatively the same as some barbarians and extreme violent experiences that I've had to experience. It is how some people respond when people have their own problems with others: they want to conquestially argue and compete over who or what the bigger problem is. (In the most sensitive way, it is not the penis size; it is the monster that is being made of me that is my problem).... I know I'm not a stalker, harasser, muslim who makes up and believes in sharia laws, and monster. I feel I'm in such an impossible position right now because I know I'm still being stalked, ganged up on, threatened, trash talked, and black-mailed; and having any sincere apology is easier said than done. It's not that I even mean to use their cut throat blackmails as a weapon with my silence. I can tell this is a very sensitive issue with some men but I'm tired of the threats, blackmails, and excuses and rights some men want to make or feel they deserve to have. Amongst other issues, I know I am an extremely judged, punished, and scapegoated woman. Because of the monstrosity of the issue and the monster that has been made of me; people are messing with the wrong victim and the wrong woman. I have no other choice than to be forced into my own personal cry for help. I care that I upset and hurt some people and I care about the tumor of an extreme rumor that has been made of me. I never wanted to make smaller sized men sincerely feel like an amoeba or plankton. I'm still putting my personal needs before some men because I know it has already gone too far. I'm not willingly sacrificing my life for any man to feel he has the right to do whatever worse and extreme punishment to me.