The Bargain: Hey big juicy steak

I'm glad you care that I care and that it looks that appetizing to you. ... Do I still think I am overreacting? NO. It really is a womanizing move and while I have a little appreciation for you appreciation, my main issue is still looked over. Through the years of being lied against and buried alive, I know how the burn feels to have my self worth and/or confidence denied as if I felt inferior to another. It is a painful experience that I can't always endure or ignore. Depending on the level of chauvinism, vainness, honesty, and fairness: it depends on how responsive I am. Yes, my breasts can be comparatively smaller than other women, but do I make the choice to compromise myself; to deny my self worth; to let it define my supremacy or inferiority? NO. And you fail to notice the bitch of a problem it has been and how much it has always been worth it to me to stay alone and on my own. I still feel my life is on the line and at risk in some ways where I would willingly deny my self worth for the sake of another woman AND I AM NOT DENYING MY SELF WORTH. Jack, I'm sorry for the steak I am in a few other men's eyes. I know I direct my conversations to you and I'm not out to make our problems worse. I'm just saying your will to womanize me and make me a piece of meat just isn't going to be enough for me. My Ariana is still wrestling with you. I won't give up on my self worth and give myself up for the sake of someone else against my respect. It hurts to have to spell out what your actions look like to me and the way you don't seem to understand what it all means to me. You've got to love me harder and make me feel accepted. I may not make as much money as a boob job, but I'm more satisfied to make the decent amount I make and not be a sell out. I know I'm a sell out in some ways, but I'm not a sell out in all ways, and I will walk away knowing I've never made the choice to be an entire sell out. huh! Please don't be mysterious with this anymore, and instead please make a final break to my heart, or keep my heart from breaking anymore than it already has.